My Life Of Job,, A Vacant Emotion

[tork]

Hide Thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities. Create me a clean heart, O God; and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Cast me not away from Thy presence; and take not Thy holy spirit from me. Restore unto me the joy of Thy salvation; and let a willing spirit uphold me.

- Psalms 51: 11-14


A VAcant Emotion

Dear Lord Jesus,

Back in 2002 You entered my life through an accident on a sunny May day.

I had a Motorcycle accident with my wife and I lost her .

I lost my job and the use of my leg, I searched for a reason why.

I never once thought that things would ever be the same for me, just days frought

with pain and condolence, I never once blamed you for my troubles.


I met many people along my way, many who offered to help and many that did not.

I endured so many surgeries, I never once faltered, I gave thanks to you each and every time.

I asked for a Partner to share my life and love, you sent her to me and I was so happy.


How could I be so lucky to find someone like this.

Through you Oh Lord, you fill those needs.She was all I could ask for and so much more.

My health took a turn and became dire to save my life. Choices were mine.


I made descisions that with hindsight seemed right at the time, little did I know It was my

own demise. I also turned my back on those that mattered, Some that did and some that did not.

We are now apart and headed for Divorce, something through blindness I did not want.


I will probably lose my house, and all thats attached, all because I gave up on myself and others.

What will I do, what can I do? i returned back to you Dear Lord,through faith and belief in the Holy spirit.

I agree I was lost, and perhaps I am found,But I am Vacant emotionally I shed tears and rebuke them.


There is so much I could have done, so much I should Have done. I never lost sight of you Lord.

I thank you every day for the Bounties I have received, and the ones I was allowed.

I am a Vacant emotion, but still retain my trust and faith in you.


I hope this is what she wants, her own demons that haunt her , haunt me.

I Am Heartfully sorry, for all that I have caused, and did try Dear Lord to mend my ways.

I know Theres a reason known only to you, I am a Vacant Emotion Who Lives the Life Of Job.


I am still your child Dear Lord, And I humbly strive to serve you In My times here on earth.

I ask for forgiveness and Guidance from above.

Amen....

[trueblu]

Remember tork, that Job never lost his trust in his God and God restored him and "blessed the latter days of Job, more than his beginning". We may not know how it can be, but just keep trusting Him! trueblu

[Jeff Guest]

My dear brother of the wind lost in the dust of life, I have visited the walls of forgotten time and tears...Your heart hurts but is on the path of the all knowing & forgiving, Our very own Sweet Lord...I have no answers to the pain that you currently endure, I do know that comfort is found and abundantly given to those who seek with a humble and willing heart, this I truly believe... You possess & profess with a willing heart to surrender all who makes & mends all that is broken, Our Lord & Jesus Christ...I am here for you my broken but strong friend, Please feel free to reach for me, we'll pray & seek His guidance together as all brothers of the endless wind shall...

Your brother In Christ, Jeff "Be My" Guest...

PS..my cell phone number will follow in a PM message to talk together, if you so desire..
God bless you!

[Hope]

Tork,
You have been through so much but God was with you all the way , and He still is, My sisterinlaw wrote and sung one of the most heart touching songs I have ever heard, I am going to share a few lines with you. the title is THE WAYMAKER
There's simply no hope I have not a Prayer I've heard some say,
theres no where to go no where to turn there is just no way.
But the God of Elija who answered by fire Hes still He's stll the same today,
He's your hope your place to turn to He's the Waymaker when there is no way.

I will be Praying for you
God Bless You Eva

[Pokey's Heart]

Never give up! Good things await..God loves you, and so do we!!!